After leaving Maryland and moving to Florida I struggle with the though of having peace and tranquility. My life was constant stress and arguments for every day. Now that I had that peace and was able to spend time with my parents, my mind would just think of the past and act afraid because that’s how life was. My brain was used to stress every day that the moment it was able to relax, it spit out all the mental issues that was holding trying to survive. Dealing with Undiagnosed ADHD, Dyslexia and Depression. All of those started coming out months later moving and got worse as time passed by.
My parents showed me some of the plants they had in the Lanai including some herbs and a few Aguacate tree they grew from seed. I always wanted to grow more plants since I learned from the time I was in Puerto Rico and when my Mother was stationed in Fort Meade we grew tomatoes. I started going to the local stores and buying seeds and pots. I really wanted to grow corn and ran into different types of corn. Then I wanted to grow some herbs and tomatoes.
Internet in Lehigh Acres was an issue so I was unable to play most games or with friends who I used to play all the time. So this pushed me into gardening even further. Gardening requires patience and a lot of physical labor. But, it was exactly what I needed at the moment. Besides working on a job that uses 99% of my mental energy, balancing it with physical work left me tire but, I was able to rest.