I spend the last five years or so wondering what issues I had that din’t let me concentrate or focus at work or just doing anything in life.I started trying to research the similar symptoms and came across ADHD. I have heard of it but, growing up, I always heard how bad the medicine was and that you will be a zombie and end up being a drug addict. I wish those comments dint existed and better tools were available to find help. Trying to do homework or take a test was like trying to insert the fabric through the needle with shaking hands and being told “do better!”. The other thing I would do as an adult is talk about things that I enjoyed. Things like tech or sci fi and get very excited but, being told to lower my voice. I never thought it was an issue but, even people at work would tell me “shh lower your voice”.
Since I was little I would always walk fast to do anything I needed to do. Go to the kitchen to get a drink, go get the groceries out of the car or just anything to finish it and continue playing video games or whatever activity I was doing that stimulated my brain. When I really liked and desired something there wasn’t anything else that would change my mind. I really wanted this shoes and this video game. Not saying I was a selfish kid but, it was one of those things you really liked and wouldn’t listen when someone told you there was another similar thing. It was like those obsessive things that your brain would find stimulating and wouldn’t look at anything else. I would completely concentrate on those things and wouldn’t care about the other options. At school nobody really said anything about how terrible I was in math and copying from others was the only way I was able to get a passing grade. Nobody never really said or care to figure out that I had a learning disability and explain completely all the issues I had.